Monthly Archives: July 2012

Dear Russell…

In memory of Russell Wade | March 31, 1988 – July 29, 2002

Dear Russell (I’m sorry, I still just can’t call you Russ…),

It’s hard to believe it’s been 10 years.

Over 10 years since we’ve had to put up with (ok, and be amused by) your mischievous ways.

Well over 10 years since you made me so mad that I kicked a hole in the wall. And I don’t care what Mom and Dad say, that was absolutely all your fault!

A little over 10 years since I bribed you into riding along to Dairy Queen on a random summer weekday with me and you got that crazy blue ice cream slush … but in all fairness, I did say you could have anything you wanted (my treat) as long as I didn’t have to go by myself. And we just won’t mention how I asked you to steer the car while I ate my ice cream … I mean, sure it was a manual, but I would have shifted if the need arose.

Just over 10 years since you told me that yes, I did look a little silly doing dizzy bat for my team at the Mega Relay on the M-Fuge rec field.

And 10 years since you’ve been here with us and we’ve heard that infectious laugh.

Sometimes it feels like so much longer and other times it feels like just yesterday, but although it’s been 10 years…

We still think about you often.

We still know someone is missing at holiday and family events.

We still bring up memories of you … sometimes in the wake of those memories, we cry. Other times, we can’t help but laugh.

We still think of our family as one with 3 siblings.

We still feel a little jealous that you got to see Jesus face-to-face first.

We still miss you.

We still love you.

Your Sister Always,

Emily

“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

Psalm 73:26 (ESV)

Sharing the Fragrance of Christ in Canada

I have some pretty amazing friends who love the Lord something fierce and desire to serve Him…both in their everyday lives and serving in missions…and I love that! It’s an honor and privilege to be able to share some of their stories with you in this space. And while I love sharing their hearts and expectations as they leave for short term missions trips, I’m just as anxious as you are to hear the specifics of how the Lord chooses to move in their midst and how He works in and through them for His glory.

So, as we’re still praying for Bethany and Rachel as they begin week two in Haiti with a new team, let’s also lift up another dear friend, Kimberly, who is leaving today for a week long missions trip to Canada with a group of 10 other people from the college/young professional group at her home church.

Where are you going in Canada and what will you be doing?

We’re going to be smack dab in the middle of Toronto … a beautiful city with so many different nationalities represented. We’ll be teaming up with a church planter doing prayer walking, working on university campuses, and sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ with those we encounter. A large part of our task is also to survey the area to see what the needs are there. And then pretty much doing anything else we can to assist our church planter partners.

Why is Canada so significant to you?

The Lord laid this country on my heart around 2008, and I have had a desire to go serve this country and these people ever since. I’m looking forward to interacting with and being amongst the people … working and sharing the Gospel and seeing if this may be where the Lord is leading for a season.

How are you expecting the Lord to work?

I’m expecting the Lord to lead me out of my comfort zone and stretch me in striking up conversations with people we meet, and I’m hoping to see Him change lives. I’m also praying for unity within our team as we come together as one body serving one Lord to share the fragrance of and life in Christ.

“But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere. For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing … Who is sufficient for these things? For we are not, like so many, peddlers of God’s’ word, but as men of sincerity, as commissioned by God, in the sight of God we speak in Christ.”

2 Corinthians 2:14-17 (ESV)

A Front Row Seat

Sometimes this surrender thing – this following the Lord with everything – is scary.

It’s the best kind of scary because absolute surrender and dependence on Him is just plain right, but it’s still catch-your-breath, what-have-I-gotten-myself-into scary.

Yet it’s also simultaneously crazy exciting because it’s being given a front row seat to watching the Sovereign, Creator God work and purpose and move.

And then being asked to join Him.

So although at times it may be a little unknown and a lot uncomfortable, I wouldn’t have it any other way because it’s relationship and it’s faith practically expressed through moment-by-moment, everyday in His presence, trust in His direction and His way.

“Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will act.”

Psalm 37:5

Photo of the Week: Twenty Seven

I would pretty much label this week a photography fail. Because sometimes, no matter how many photos you take, they just don’t quite turn out how they were envisioned. The good news? They’re only photos and there’s always next week…

side note: although the photo may imply otherwise, I don’t actually recommend taking a photo while walking on a moving treadmill.

They’re Haiti Bound {Again!}

Many of you who have read my blog for a while may remember that my roommate, Bethany (usually referred to as “B” on the blog), went on a missions trip to Haiti last year (after also going the previous year shortly after the earthquake) to serve as a nurse on a medical team with the North Carolina Baptist Men / Baptists on Mission.

This week, she’s preparing to go back to serve again, and this time, I got to hear the inside scoop about the trip from both her AND the trip leader, Rachel, who is in PA school. I hope you enjoy hearing what’s on their hearts as much as I did as they both anticipate returning to a place that they love so dearly.

{Bethany on the left & Rachel on the right … looking all official w/their scrubs & medical supplies}

When are you leaving and how long will you be there?

B: We leave this Sunday {insert huge grin here}, July 22. Rachel and I will be there two weeks, and there will be five other people joining us each week we’re there.

Where will you be in Haiti and what type of work will you be doing?

B: We’ll be staying in the same area as last year in a small village about 20 miles north of the Port Au Prince airport and we’ll be working in medical clinics with a very similar set-up to last year. {see this post from last year for a glimpse into a typical day at the clinics.}

What are you most looking forward to about this trip?

B: You know I have to be honest … I was thinking about it and because we’re staying two weeks, I’ll get to go back to church this time, and I’m excited about that! The first year I went, we got to go to church with the people at the orphanage we stayed at, and it was so neat to see how they worship. Even though we all live in different places, and speak different languages, and do different things, at the end of the day, we all worship the same God!

R: I think I’m most excited to see my dear friends in Haiti, to see my little girl Venia and her family, and to see baby Rachel and her mom. Baby Rachel turned 1 on July 12th – the same day I finished my last exam of my first year of PA school! {y’all, just for the record, Rachel helped deliver baby Rachel last year while she was in Haiti, and she is just precious!}

How are you expecting the Lord to work?

R: I’m praying that the Lord will use our teams to foremost share the Gospel and invite others to accept Christ’s free gift of eternal life. Then, I’m praying our team can meet the medical needs of the people. We have a young team of medically trained members and other non-medical members, but I’m praying God will use each of us and our gifts to assist our Haitian medical teams to see/treat all the patients.

What’s with all the flip-flops?

B: When I went to Haiti last time … well, there are obvious needs for medicines and stuff, but my Aunt and cousin really wanted to do something for the children. So when I got back we were talking about how they didn’t really have a lot of clothes and how they’d just be running around in whatever pieces of clothes they could find, and so my Aunt decided to make dresses for the little girls. My cousin got a few pairs of flip-flops, and my mom and I just decided to get even more because a lot of the kids don’t really have shoes either. It’s just a way to bless them!

Has the Lord laid any particular Scripture on your heart for this trip?

R: God brought back to mind 2 Corinthians 12:8-10. This was the lesson that God taught me on my last trip {to Haiti} in December. And this was the devotional I presented to my team challenging them that in our weaknesses, God can work through us and give us strength. And He gives the Haitian people grace in their brokenness and sickness.

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” (v. 9)

Little did I know that this verse would become so powerful to me personally as I became very ill mid-week. I had to FULLY trust God to be with me in my weakness and trust His grace and healing power for me. When we are helpless, God’s strength and power is even more evident…when I was weak, on my knees and in pain, all I could do was look up to the only One who saved me and could be my stronghold.

How can we specifically be praying for you and the team?

B: For smooth travel. For safety and health during the trip … and for “cool” … especially since it’s gonna be so hot! That the stuff/supplies all make it there. And mostly that people’s hearts would be open, because yeah, we’re there to meet a physical need, but we’re really there to meet a spiritual need.

R: For preparations this week. For safety and health. For travel/flights. For cool breezes and quick acclimation to the heat (without AC…). For strength and excitement in sharing God’s love. That God will work in each team member’s heart to break and mold us into His likeness, so that we become bold and courageous…and that God would teach us, give us confidence and recall in what we’re trained to do, and that He would use us in a MIGHTY way! For sleep/rest prior to and during the trip. For the Haitian staff and our host couple. To see God’s glory and His hand at work in all that we do.

Anything else we should know or you would like to share?

R: I just get soooo excited and feel so at home serving in Haiti! I am so thankful for God walking and guiding me through this tough school year and now allowing me to return to Haiti. I’m also excited for my sister and brother to experience God’s work in Haiti with me and seeing my passion and calling being fulfilled.

I am so looking forward to hearing how God works in and through both of these women and their teams in Haiti over the next two weeks!

Would you join me in praying for Bethany and Rachel and their teams as they serve?

{all photos, except the flip-flops, are courtesy of B from her prior trips to Haiti}

The Back-up Plan

That’s what it is, right? A back-up plan.

The one that’s comforting and secure. Kinda.

The one that makes it a little easier to breathe today. Kinda.

But it’s all wrong.

Oh, the plan is good, and rational, and logical, and makes so much sense.

And yet it completely lacks trust in and dependence on HIM.

The One I read about almost every night in Psalms right now.

“I love you, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock in who I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.”

- Psalm 18:1-2

My Rock, my Refuge, my Deliverer, my Help.

Yes, this back-up plan, the one born out of hurt and fear and urgency and unknown…

Is really just a lack of trust.

So I surrender {again} to His sovereign plan.

I take up my cross {again} and follow.

Knowing … trusting … that I’ve taken the next small step in obedience and I don’t have to know the rest.

Because He knows the rest … and He’s known it all along.

He alone holds my future, and He knows exactly where I’m headed.

Because He’s the One who established the steps to begin with.

“The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in His way.”

- Psalm 37:23

And whatever the outcome, whether close to the back-up plan or a world apart, I’ll be placed where He wants me … fully surrendered to Him, asking Him to work in and through me for His fame and for His glory.

His plan is better than my best back-up plan.

Every. Single. Time.

“He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure.”

- Psalm 40:2